DECONSTRUCTING SELF

Life with a sweet tooth is a tough one, take my word for that... To all dose fellow chocoholics & 'mad about sugar' people round the globe.."mate, you are close to losing another loyal member of the dwindling fraternity".. Its a sign !! sign of an imminent disaster..hurled from all nooks and corners across the globe ..we are losing the battle-- a long & bitterly fought one against those oh-so-rigid nutritionists ...They are finally gaining ground on us ,thanks to those 'a research paper a day' studies hell-bent on eliminating 'sugar-intake' from our midst..Its closer to 'DOOMSDAY' then one would have thought ever.. The day is not far when our beloved "cheesecakes, gajar ka halwa, choco-fudges, kaju ki barfi" would become stuff of legends !! the coming generations would only talk in terms of 'basic calorie requirements' & 'dietary values' ..What the hell happened to terms like 'taste' ,'cherish' ,'crave' ??

Its always a pleasure to move back in time..to fly without wings to moments you were so familiar with but lost count of due to 'winds of change' or as they call it 'the ravages of time'..one of my very first 'sweet' memory is of a tempting, irrestible ,snowy white 'roshogulla' creeping into the corners of my mouth at a snail's pace ..It was just perfect !!! my childhood has seen an oft-repeated scene..mom chiding me playfully rather mocking me.."sab log namak khaate aur ek tu hai ki..bas meetha meetha.." nw nw ma.. is it my fault that i have been hand delivered from space with a sweet tooth..(by the way ..'sweet teeth' would do lot better..lol)..Then there were times -festival times-when i would be left to feast on the whole dibbas all alone...cris-crossing my way through the favs...Even my most precious dream back then was to get locked inside a 'mithai mart' , left all to myself as moon shone away..

The routine was hardly different when i came to college..One of those strangely peculiar scenes were ma friends pulling me away from chocolate shops during our evening strolls..& mind u with all their vigour..a more comical one was the Mr.Brown one..people order sandwitches,burgers but its anebody's guess what his highness goes for..all kinda pastries..(truffles,eclairs,dark-choco..blah blah blah...)The matters came to such a degree that i hardly had to bother about the order..they served with a pre-conceived notion after all..lol...

Things have changed ..they have changed a great deal..the first big shock when papa got diagnosed with 'diabetes' -he with that healthy lifestyle and low key sugar diet-if that could happen anything could..Insulin or the lack of it was at work again..and slowly reality began to sink in rather 'kicked in' by all those who just can't resist taking a pot-shot..check them-"u are not eating sugar ,bhai,its eating u!! "..."when the hell are you going to cut on that sugar of yours..dont you realize your probability of catching diabetes has gone up numerically coz' genetics says so" !!! But the remark that scores above the rest came from that sweet sis of mine.."lets make it clear , its very simple, r u going to cut it or shud i cut u ?" frankly i have seen very little of her tempers otherwise i would not have exclaimed "take a chill-pill..di "..(gosh i simply wonder why am i marooned by 'better sense' in these moments... ) u can very well imagine how everything went da 'happily-ever-after' way later...


Everyone tells me ..'change is good'..even the vodafone ad laughs at me...i want to speak out,cry out loud..'It was better previously,much better..'Its hard to adapt ,more so for a person who had a way of life with it..who waxed lyrics about it..

mai meethe ka cheetta hu...ram pam pam...
mai meethe ka cheetta hu...ram pam pam...
bhais ke aage been bajao ....
ham logo ka ek hi gaana...
khao meetha meetha re..

its actually remixed and borrowed in part..but it tells a story..ain't it??
So where do i stand now? staring into space ..stranded.. cast-away..lost in an alien sugar-less...world ..buhuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu......